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Today I arrived school around 10:30. Again late. I suppose to wake up at 5:15 to sahur, and then cook breakfast and lunch, and then go to school early.. but when the alarm snoozed, I just gave up, told myself that I dont need sahur, and I will get up and cook at 6. But then..  I just sedar when Rizal call me to open the door! 7am! I even didnt hear the bell! ohh fuyu… and pity my husband.. finally had maggi for his breakfast!!

And.. after Rizal get to sleep I started to cook lunch.. but this time Numa woke up. huhuuuuu… again my shoulder and arm. I just (in fact I should) just let her up.. but pity to Rizal he wont get rest. So I spent some more time, tepuk2 her to sleep again…… and accidently I was also tertepuk to sleep!! huhuuu!! When I woke up it was already 9:15!

I rushed to shower, then cook lunch. But this time, Haris woke up.  He decelerated me.. but luckily he’s in good mood. Singing and jumping in the morning. Before I get out, I just prepared for him rice wt vege soup and sausage, and a cup of milo, and a small pack of biscuit on the table.. play his favourite Barney, lock the stove, lock the heater…

Papa and Numa were still in deep sleep.. kiss them… and went out to school. Again for the many times, I wasnt able to achieve my target to be at school before 8.

*Today’s fav quotation : “PhD adalah secebis kisah kehidupan kita yang ringkas. Kejayaan sebenar adalah milik Allah.”

Go girl!!!!

i’ve back from a very long holiday + leave. more than 2 weeks! 9days new year holiday plus 7days leave taking care my sick kids. and of cource the 7days including my alasan + kemalasan to get back to work. really enjoyed my 2-weeks as a fulltime wife merangkap mommy. almost all the time at home.. do massive cleaning and laundry, cook special bites-to-eats (betul ke ntah…), and the best thing.. pamper my bintang2 hati including their papa!

today i hardly back to work. now almost at the end of the day I hardly managed to achieve my target for today. but yet still toooo many things to do tomorrow - meet sensei for some advice, prepare for malay language lesson on the next day, and also for presentation also on the same day (Thursday), and also final touch (that would take my whole day) to the paper to submit on Friday - paper to the Stanford, ICED Conference. ohhh I also promised to help sakayama with her virtual machine instalment tomorrow… that also would take half of my day tomorrow! seems like tomorrow i have to practice my speed work, full focus, ignore the world, and bla bla bla. what important is, tomorrow i’ve to start with a full 気合い - full spirit full fight, not as today.. bangun pun lambat hahaa.

ganbare siha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*miss watching touching dramas…

wanna write smthing, but I’m sooo stuck. always wanted to say smtnhg, but everything are all havent come into shape. tooo tired wt studies.. or actually, with those all remeh temeh that indispensable for the study? really? wellll…. emmm… but when could i start my study?

*sigh*

i had mine.. even so it was only accepted for poster presentation, but it was an international conference! what is bout poster? the acceptance rate is only 25-30%! isnt it good for an unexperienced researcher like me? emmmm… i admit i didnt do much for the paper. i just did the work, only a bit in the thinking. but i was the one who triggered the thing! it was my idea!! it just that i’m not skilled enough to do the thinking. but i’m sure i can do it in my 3-yrs study! but.. they were rushing for the conference, which later they gave it up, and submitting for another big one, because the finding is sooooo significant.. and at the end my idea had become somebody else’s work. probably. indeed I’m pretty sure that my name would be the second in the list. enough wt the hints!

i dont have problem with that. i should be happy wt the 2nd name. i admit i didnt do much (actually i did A LOT except the thinking). what a waste of time! now I’m busy ‘helping’ the paper - again wasting my time. deep inside, still claiming that the idea was mine! now i just wanna move up wt my phd things. wanna think of something that would be great significant (as our finding before). wanna reach my target for this semester. would i? huwa huwaaaaaaa. tired of this. afraid i just could start those things in end of Jan!!! now i just busy with the so called writing, trying to make myself as mendokusai as them. love being hassle and rigid - i really couldnt understand! why dont just make it simple and stright forward? then the thing is done!! then can go home and rest! resting is not wasting time, being mendokusai is. arggghhhhhhhh!!!

i’d like to talk bout an uncle in this post. he’s an early-retired army, now doing kampung jobs, very nice and talkative, and having good health at his early 50th. only recently he had serious headache several times, but he always refused to see the doc. I can’t understand why old people always behave that way; well i’m not old yet so I yet couldnt understand.

but one day he was forced to go to the hospital.. and, know what? he had been operated immediately!! the doc suspected a brain tumor! ermmm ok.. well, after the operation he spent some time at the hosp, an then back home. but.. after about two days at home, he cried and yelled for a very terrible pain, they send him back to the hosp immediately, and now the doc have no choice but to put him on coma, while waiting for the previous operation result - which I truly hope that the thing wont be malignant…..

and the uncle is.. my father’s youngest brother… and my close paksu. ganbare paksu.. we’ll pray for you. amiin.

tak tersempat dah nk menulis pasal ainori… terpaksa mengakhirinya di sini huhuuuuu… tp sblm tu nk citer… yokko dah balik dgn kousuke as a couple! hurray! medetai medetai!!! yg best nyer… kousuke yg minat yokko mula2.. tp last2 yokko yg mempropose kousuke. n ape jawapan kousuke?? dia propose balik ajak kawin!! gembira aku. beza 8thn tu!!!

k lah… tamat di sini. nak g meeting ni…

yesterday when i was doing laundry,  i heard this lit guy saying “mama where are u..” “aa! here?” hahaaaa that “”aa!” part was lawak… anak jepun..
dis is his photo taken this morning when I was waking him up. he was crying actually, morning-hunger… but he was not sure whether to askfor susu in d bottle or not. he must be wondering why susu in d bottle always taste salty, but not in d cup! u ask papa ok!!
such dat I would like to announce here that haris on his 2yrs 2 mtnhs and 1 week old, is already free from feeding bottle! yeay!!

instead of dat.. he already can count 1 to 10, recognize few letters - A B C D E F K M N O R and Z, and also three jawi letters - alif, hamzah and ya! also he knows few shapes and colors, and can develop few sentences. he’s soooooo very very talkative at home. cant believe it rite? coz he’s d most silent ensem guy outside!

This morning I arrives school at around 8:30am. As usual, whether I or Miura will be the ‘jaga’ who open the lab door. Today, he was earlier than me. After few minutes, he came to me and said.. “俺大学を中退する事になりました” kalau di translate ke bhs melayu.. “I have to quit my study”. haaa???!!!!! I was terpinga-pinga for a while. Aku salah dgr ke.. atau nihongo aku dah teruk sgt??

Miura he’s doing phd and suppose to grad in September 2009. For me he is a veeeeeeery mcm bagus+poyo+over guy. In study, of course I dont evaluate him so I dont really know, but I suppose he is veeeeeeeery excellent. Seems like he knows everything!

I think he was tooooo confident that he could complete his PhD in 2.5 years, means this coming March. He has been looking for job since last year. I can remember both taura and tsumaya sensei said to him that he was too early to look for job.. but emmm.. he was soooo ‘mcm bagus’ and didnt listen to sensei’s advice. that’s not the first time he act mcm bagus, I can remember few times along the year sensei was so angry about him.

Now, his new job was was already confirmed - a company in Tokyo. He have to start work in April 09. But… he still unable to complete his PhD. Few requirements he havent achieve yet. Well in short, he has to choose - PhD or job.

I have two conclusions here - #1 being a japanese is not easy (high competition), and #2 PhD is not easy

and one tiny side conclusion - “PhD is an art of satisfying the supervisor”

starting nov `08, kobe city implementing a new rule for garbage disposal. emmm I think it doesnt differ much from previous practice, except that we have to use a special designated bag, and oversized garbage would be charged. the new rule also emphasizes about putting out the garbage between 5am to 8am on collection day, at designated places the japanese call ‘clean station’.

it doesnt much differ, though,  the new rule is indeed providing even more hassle, but I never hear any complaint from the japanese. not a time! and today, the first monday of november, means the first collection day in november, I went out to put out my garbage this morning with various expectations. and what I saw.. the ‘clean station’ was really clean, with all garbage in uniform bags, carefully placed one side to another! this is one reason why a love staying in Japan! they obey!

I could imagine how the reaction if the rule implemented in Malaysia! well no need to explain it here coz everybody could tell. maybe if the weather in Malaysia is as cool as autumn here, the people would be more kind and obedient (quoted from wannur’s opinion hehe). i dont know. for me, inspite of the attitude, people in Malaysia are lack of awareness+knowledge, which I think not the people are to be blamed. I wouldnt blame anybody or any party or any association, that’s a negative way. but the awareness of evironmental problem is already at a vital stage today. I wont have enough page to explain here, but believe me, we’re losing the land! suppose we’d need a mermaid kit one day?!!

I’m personally very concern about environmental problems. why? in decades ahead, I might still need the earth with the lands, the rivers, the skies, and so on. and even if I’m not, my generations surely will. for me, the people who doesnt protect the earth dont have the right to live on it.

well when it comes to environment, I can talk the whole day. lecturer lah katakan hahaaaaaa

今日は忙しいけど腹立ってるからなんか書きたい！読んでほしくない人間が私のブロッグを読んでいるので日本語で書く。日本語が分かる友達がいてよく訳してもらっているだろうけど。。。まずその友達にメッセージ：今回だけ絶対訳さないで下さい。

拝啓＊＊＊なあなた；

とにかくYMするのが大迷惑なので、もうやめて下さい!!!以上。

イヤだ。。。はっきり言うのが大苦手なので。。。。やめて下さいってはっきり言いたい!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is what makes me happy working in Japan. I just told sensei my machine (commonly called ‘computer’) problem last week monday, he immediately ordered a new machine for me. and within one week I have it already!

and let me introduce it here. it’s name is BT-Q66A1I500T28 it’s not important but well its d name hehee…. but what I like most is the CPU Intel Core 2 Quad, and memory 3.49 GB RAM! it has 2 hard disks inside that makes me able to have double O/S -  Windows and Linux, and both are 500GB! can’t believe I have 1TB!! One Tera!! la la la l aaaaaaa  I’m soooo HAPPY!!

and.. I still also using my antique machine pararelly, which I will use only for dengar lagu kot! :))